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Even before Heath Ledger's death, Michelle Williams was hesitant about predicting how the next few years would unfold. In a just-released interview with Britain's Wonderland magazine that took place before the actor's Jan. 22 passing, she touches on their breakup and how she's pushing forward.

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Michelle Williams' Wonderland cover

"Obviously so much has changed for me in the last few months that I don't really have an idea of what my life is going to be," the actress says, alluding to her September split with Ledger, the father of her 2-year-old daughter, Matilda. "I thought I knew certain things and it turned out that I didn't so I don't really try and anticipate so much anymore. I'm not making any bets on the future."

According to Williams, "There's been a lot going on in my personal life and part of me is ... I don't know. I shouldn't talk about it but it's like I'm re-emerging back into the world or something."

That world includes spending time with Matilda at the Brooklyn brownstone she once shared with Ledger, which has since been overrun with paparazzi. That loss of privacy must be especially difficult for Williams, who tells the magazine the only positive aspect of their parting was a decrease in flashbulbs.

"When you're in a relationship with somebody who is also a public personality then it doubles the attention from the media," she explains. "When you minus that equation it's just less enticing. That's been a real bonus. It's the plus side of the break-up for me. It was so pervading, it got bad there for a while. Every time I walk out of the door I still worry ... I'm not good at that stuff. I need to get better at it. It really used to affect me."

Williams also discusses how she balances her personal and professional lives, saying that she feels equally content whether she's in front of the camera or at home with Matilda, even though her "vocabulary has shrunk to the size of a pea" since becoming a mom.

"I love domestic life. I'm really my mother's daughter. I like needlepoint, folding laundry and baking bread. I can be happy doing that stuff for a long time," she shares. "But right now the work is so good and the opportunities are so remarkable -- they're what I've always hoped for -- that it's hard to pass up. You always wonder how long the good roles will keep coming."

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Michelle at Heath Ledger's funeral in Perth, Australia, on Feb. 9.

(As for her start on "Dawson's Creek," she admits she's no longer close to her former cast mate Katie Holmes, who, with husband Tom Cruise, reportedly attended one of the memorial services held for Ledger in Los Angeles: "To be honest, we're not really in touch.")

Williams, who will soon head to Boston to film the Martin Scorsese-directed "Shutter Island" with Leonardo DiCaprio, was back at work this week in New York, where she shot scenes for the drama "Mammoth" just a few blocks from the apartment where Ledger died.

Her time in front of the camera came just a couple days after she attended a memorial service for her former fiancé in his native Perth, Australia.

According to Us, Williams' composure faltered during a moving montage of pictures featuring Ledger with Matilda, which was set to the Ben Harper song "Happy Ever After in Your Eyes," which he wrote specifically for the tot.

A confidante tells the magazine that though Michelle is "still very heartbroken," she "is happy to be working. It is a welcome distraction."

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